STORM

Storm of my life

I always thought that I have to avoid every conflict
Cause I think that conflict is such a bad thing
That conflict is caused purely by my negative attitude
That by conflict, we only gained bad things...

I always thought that I need to avoid conflict
That if you see it coming nearer to you
You should run as far you can
Cause if you get into it,
You would find yourself broken apart afterwards

But then I found out
That you cannot run from it forever
Maybe now, but not later
And sometimes even if you've tried to avoid it,
You'll be struck from other directions
In times that you'll never know

Hurts, guilts, heartbreaks
Tears, broken friendships and broken loves
I thought that there were nothing but pains
I thought that it will only put you one step behind

But then I know,
That God has always been with me all the time
It's just that I only look at those pains
I've never been able to look beyond
That God wants me to WIN
To be able to go through this storm with Him

I've been forgetting God all these times
That makes me feel just the suffering and not the grace
I've been forgetting that He's been waiting for me to come into His embrace
"Where are you, God ? Why do I have to go through this ?"
Those had always been my words

I'm having another conflict now
A huge storm is now happening again...
But now, I won't relly on my own power
Cause it won't work, I know now
I will lift my hands unto God,
And I know that in THAT moment, God will lend His hand
God, I cannot go anything without you...
I hand it all unto Your hands...
Please help me to go on...

I will see a rainbow after this heavy rain, I know
Cause God never breaks His promises
I will wait upon God,
And He will answers my prayers...