SOBER

It's been a while since I posted the last story. It took a while until I can get back to reality.

At the last post I was telling you about my mother who got lung cancer, wasn't I ?

She passed away at June 2nd, 2008 after 1 month hospitalised. I can tell you, it was the worst period in my life. My mother diagnosed for cancer in August last year, but then hospitalised because her condition was worsened. I tried to be strong in front of my mother and family in Bandung, even in front of my friends. I could manage sometimes, but in Jakarta I sometimes just bursted into tears.

After 1 month of struggling and praying, my mother passed away. I was ready, I know God has a plan and He decides the best for both my mother and my family, so I didn't cry much. But two weeks after that and so forth, it was unbearable. I cried almost every night, especially after my siblings gone to their own places in Bandung, Jakarta and Denpasar - Bali. I was alone in my Mother's house. Even after I got back in Jakarta, at the first week I still felt very depressed. I say 'depressed' because it was the condition - I couldn't do anything properly, I couldn't concentrate.

But thank God, God granted me with families and friends who always pray for me to God, so He give new strength to live every day. Now, it's better. I still miss my mother but it's not as sad as before. I can remember the great memories I shared with my mother without bursting into tears. Thank God. God blesses me so much. This experience also teach me a lot about counting my days and always ask God to give me wisdom, knowledge, courage, peace of mind and happiness to everything in God and for God. I really learn a lot from my mother too about love and to walk by faith everyday with God. Thank you, my dear mother...

I pray that you - who read this - will be blessed too.